"I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. That makes it hard to plan the day." E.B. White
This was the front of one of my favorite cards I received this mother day, along with a reminder that there is no greater opportunity to "IMPACT" and change the world than through my four precious children. It is wild to think about only nine short years ago, almost to the day, I was lying in a hospital bed giving birth to our first born baby girl. I had no idea how she or her three brothers to shortly follow would impact my life, the lessons I would learn or how much I would grow in losing "myself," but loving them so deeply. It was as if in only a few short moments of head crowning, and a new baby crying life instantly transformed the once upon a time fairy-tail dreams for my own life, into thousands of wishes for my own children's lives. Deep and long lasting joy was no longer about travel, success and worldly ambitions, but now found in little smiles, first steps and crazy days.
My own journey in losing myself and finding purpose in this world has been very difficult. Society is persuasive, and can quickly and deceptively lead you to believe that joy lies in everything worldly. The often thankless many roles of motherhood are easily overshadowed by promises of happiness and joy in a variety of other things. There is always another passion,cause,or someone to help, and technology has made it so much easier to immerse ourselves in so many more things going on today throughout the globe, that many times just being a mom doesn't seem like enough.
I was reminded again today by my family, friends and children.....that being a Mom is one of the BEST and most important jobs we can be given. As mother's we can choose to embrace this great role, with the understanding we have no greater opportunity to impact and CHANGE THIS WORLD we live in, than through our children. Time does go by much too quickly. In the blink of an eye they are here and out of the nest starting their own life journey's to find joy, happiness and purpose, and we can only hope in doing our best, we have given them wings to fly.
I laughed and cried today as I reflected on all I have given up to gain oh so very much!! In the word's of one of my greatest mentors, friend and family......." If I can live without regret, I will find great peace." There will be no regret in doing my best to be the "4 A's" mom!! I know that for sure.
Me in the first few minutes with my mama, only 36 years ago!
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