The last few weeks have been more than amazing. I have emerged from the first layers of rubble, have dusted myself off and am moving forward in this new and changed life. Much has been lost, and because of this I still mourn, but so much more has been gained. It seems crazy to say I feel more at peace than the place that I was at all throughout the past year, but now my eyes are open and I am able to see not only the depth of my own soul, but some of the treasurer's God has blessed me with that were buried underneath all of life's junk. Don't get me wrong, life is still not without pain or struggles, and I still have a lot of growing to do, but I feel comfortable in knowing that each and everyday is a gift, and this life I've been given must be lived with balance, intention and purpose.(More on this purpose later.)
I laugh when I write this because most of the balance, intention and purpose in my life at this time is in orchestrating the lives of four small children and Nate. Whether it's changing sheets, packing lunches, facilitating music. soccer and school work, wiping butts (no not Nate's =), or just tucking them in at night a day doesn't pass when this isn't my number one priority. Of course, like the mad woman I am, I pack in a few other things too, but unlike the past, I am content and know the importance of my many roles as chef, taxi driver, event coordinator, cleaning lady, tutor, wife, daughter, mother and friend!
Despite this crazy schedule, I made time tonight to join a group of "Amazing Women" for an evening of fun and fellowship! I hadn't been looking for a support group, or even new friends, but it was not by chance that at a time I was feeling so "lonely", so many beautiful women would be placed in my life. These women, much like myself, are living life affected by cancer. For some the fight has just begun, for others it is ongoing. There have been lives gained and others lost, but the overall theme that resonated in their laughter and tears tonight, was the importance of human connection, compassion and support in the "celebration" of this journey we call life.
how awesome! thanks for sharing this special gift you have received. you and your family remain in my prayers.
Posted by: Margo Grimm | 10/13/2010 at 01:34 PM